That's a good sign.
I was also very happy to see 2500 page views of this blog this morning.
I'm doing better, but there is always room for improvement.
Here's what I've been working on this weekend....skeleton dolls are back!
And now for a small uncommon rant, comments welcome:
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Today my mind is on the notion of going back to school (again), actually it's been on my mind for a few days now. Having a degree in art (cringe) would help some people (family) accept my career choice. It would also probably help launch my name/ideas better and provide a solid networking base. As much as I disagree with paying money to be "professional" (because that's what you are with a degree in hand) I'm seeing the necessity of it as I get older. Our society is too hung up on "having a degree". What to do? What to do?
Then there's the decisions of where to go to school? How do I get there? How much paperwork do I have to fill out? (worst part) How many loans will I have to take out? How my soul be owned for the next 4-6 years. Granted I did enjoy my small stent in art school but just thinking about all this is giving me a headache. The one line I'm being told from a family member that is completely pissing me off and making me want to run to the hills and never return,
"Go to school. Then you'll be able to make better money and then you'll have time for your art work."
That's pretty much the most depressing thing I've been told, and repeatedly I might add.
So on the other side of this equation, I've been pondering my little handmade business and how pathetically I've let it slump into a nothing business. I was doing pretty good for a while. Monthly craft shows and commissioned pieces. I managed to finish a quilt a month while having the downtown studio. I still have people asking to see new stuff. But I let it fall to the wayside and quietly curled into a ball of thought.
I needed a good break. I needed to think about what I want to do with my life. I needed to make better choices and learn harder lessons. I needed to grow up a bit more. All in all, I've had a nice little vacation from myself. But the aftermath of dropping the ball has been nagging in my mind. I have so many projects I'd like to accomplish. And here I've been glued to a chair staring into the internet like a crystal ball, admiring the talent of the world and doing nothing for myself.
Something had to change. More change. I complain (to myself) that I lack the energy. But I've had the energy, just not mentally. I have no more excuses. That one line told to me repeatedly is like a battle cry calling me to war. I must defend what I love to do. And though it has never really mattered much to me, an income from what I love to do is important. I must be self sufficient. I need to get away from that one line and not look back. Time to re-list my goals. Time to do what makes me happy. I'm not afraid.
Sometimes, you just have to dive in.
I hope it was helpful for you to put those thoughts out here. I know it usually is to me. I personally still refuse the "must get degree to be taken seriously/get ahead" line myself. I hope that if I refuse it and others like me do as well that someday it will not be fed to my children.
ReplyDeleteHere's to real education - self-education!